i've been in my attempt in moving on... in stabling myself from a fall... in getting myself to a platform to which i may stand... a place where i will be assured a stability... a ground... a foundation.....

to have my thoughts right... to have my life...

but things have not been going the way i think i would wan it to go.. ya i do try in striving forward... shoving myself thru the thickening mist that hovered before me... and as i go further... i feel myself lost... trying to look back... all i see are blurred visions... everything are of a moving silhouette... the world of which it revolves without taking notice of this undying soul who is in need of a motivation.... -> i am now on my own......

i made myself a list... to get my priorities right... to amend my mistakes to other living beings... to those who i believe i do owe them a favour in which i have yet to repay........ but where do i start...???
-my family
-my relatives
-my teachers
-my friends
these are everybody to me... and they too are everything to me..... they are a part of me...

to those who are reading this... if in any way i have done my wrongs... do accept my deepest apology.... i believe every living souls do make mistakes... and from my humble regrets.. i will amend watever mistakes i'd done...

moving on to build myself a better person... the thought is somewhat giving me a drive... but the pavement have yet to be paved... the future awaits.... and i will never know what lies in front of me... but im recuperating myself.... cause in the very first place... i think i have yet to have my confidence in myself... i've been clinging on to people and trying not to let go.... i was scared.... and the fear embedded me to an extend that i did go to drastic measures...